Leading up to the new year we had a lot of different illnesses running around the house. Every week it was some new infectious bug that kept the kids out of school and Martin and I exhausted. That added in with the regular holiday stress we were tired.Shortly after the New Year Martin's Grandma passed away. This was and is very difficult. His Grandma felt like the glue that held his family together through thick and thin. We were devastated.
There has also been a change in my family that makes me incredibly sad, I can't go into detail because I don't want to air anyone's dirty laundry. Nevertheless it's something I worry about.
All of these family troubles have made it a rough start for this year.
I worry for people, more than I probably should. I want to fix problems for people that I can't and shouldn't. This is a hard lesson for me and one I'm still trying to learn.
I've got problems of my own to focus on but I can't help aching for the people I love when they are struggling. It's easy to let it all get overwhelming. I'm really not sure what the point of this post is today. I just needed to get it out of me. I don't have an easy answer for any of it.
All I have for now is hope that things get brighter, that the people I love will get through the darkness.
I hope, I hope, I hope.
